A 23-year-old who loves everything beautiful. Lover of life, of love, of photography, of art, of good books, of sunsets, of food, of fashion, of music. Believer. Friends, family and God are my source of inspiration. Extraordinary dreamer.
He will look at you, speechless, but never in a different light. Because no matter what you’ve shared with him, it will never change a thing. No matter how broken or ugly or messed up you think you are, he will spend every precious second, from that moment on, making sure you understand that you are beautiful and loved and perfect. He will wipe your tears away; and all of your walls and masks will finally come crashing down.
You know you’re falling when all the other relationships that came before become vague and blurry fixtures of your past. You no longer need to hold onto the disintegrating love from your failed relationships, to the hurt and wounds and resentment. You learn how to let go, if you haven’t before. When you realize that holding yourself back because the fear of being hurt all over again isn’t fair to someone new. Because they’re not your past. Instead, they could be your future.
You’re falling when you trust them enough to tell them your deepest, darkest secret, and you know they won’t run away. You feel comfortable enough to be at your most vulnerable, and you know they will try and protect you from your demons and fears.
THIS POST. #truth
I got to read my old Tumblr post from October 2009 titled 12.26.08 because someone liked it and it showed up on top of my posts. It has currently gathered 1,419 notes, which would make it one of my ‘popular’ posts in this account. It’s actually an image with a letter/text I wrote on December 26, 2008 for a certain person.
It’s funny because while I was reading it, it just makes me smile how different things are then and now. 5 years ago, I was able to write that. Now, I can only smile because it will remain as just that letter full of feelings at that certain moment in my life. One thing I realized, you can never be the same person you were. Like life is constantly changing, so are we.
So did my feelings. Because after all, they were just feelings… that I decided and chose to let go and move on from when I thought I couldn’t. I thought I couldn’t… because I did not want to in the first place.
There will always be those feelings of nostalgia and of flashbacks when I read that and remember… But that one person, is one person who I will just leave behind in the past. At some point, you will learn to realize and accept that things won’t be the same as it is. And when you allow yourself to move on and be happy, you will be… eventually.
God has a way of fixing and arranging things, something I can never understand how or why. But trusting Him lead me to where I am today. And knowing Him turned my emotional and sorrowful heart into a heart full of joy and gladness.
I used to just ‘wish’ I can say that I am genuinely happy. I never wish that anymore, because I am genuinely happy with my life.
I used to think that one person was just that perfect for me… But, as I said, eventually… You will also meet someone who won’t be perfect, but right for you. We don’t need perfect, because we’re not perfect ourselves. We only need right, because when it’s right, it just becomes perfect.
Life is all about the choices we make and the decisions we choose to live by. I only heard and read that countless of times before. But I totally understand it now.
Moving on is a choice. Letting go is a choice. Staying is a choice. Leaving is a choice. Love is a choice.
Better choose right, yes?
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Posted on April 29, 2013